Change is scary.
I put in my two weeks notice at one of my jobs last week. The job as a hostess, then busser, then server at a fine-dining establishment. The job that I started when I was 19 years old and have been working at ever since.
I haven’t been happy at this job for a while now, mainly because the owners of the company are sketchy people, and my manager is, well, kind of a dick. The money is inconsistent and the work environment is hostile. And finally, I’ve been at this restaurant for so long, and the company for even longer, that I feel like I’ve become stagnant and incapable of learning or growing anymore. So I decided that at the beginning of the summer I would find another job to replace the one I’ve had forever. Once summer came to an end, I would quit the undesirable job just in time for school to start. And I am doing just that; my last day at the undesirable job is this Wednesday.
I have taken the initiative to make a much-needed change happen in my life. I have bitched and complained about this job for the past few years, and now I’m finally moving on! I should be happy about this, right? If so, then why do I feel a little bit… sad?
Well, like I said, I’ve worked at this particular restaurant for over six years now, and have been with the company for nine. Essentially, it’s what I know. The jobs I’ve had within this company were some of my firsts and longest-lasting. I’ve grown up and around the same people and procedures since I was in high school and all throughout college. I have learned so much about food, wine, customer service, and most importantly, the responsibilities of working and just having a job. I’ve met some really awesome people along the way whom I’ll miss dearly.
However, the show must go on. Yes, I’m scared of making such a huge change in my life. Yes, I’m a little bit sad to leave the undesirable job, but I need to keep in mind as to all the reasons why I wanted to leave in the first place. Change is scary, but it’s also an indispensable part of life in which we move on from what we know in order to promote growth. It is where we open our doors to potential happiness, as well as other exciting opportunities that await us.
So yes, change is scary, but it’s also really, really, good.