A new friend of mine said to me today: “Don’t forget to skype with your mom tomorrow!” I refrained from making the conversation awkward by responding with, “My mom isn’t alive anymore; she passed away over a year ago.” Instead, I just smiled and nodded.
Today is my second Mother’s Day without you. Another year where I won’t be giving you a pretty pink card from Hallmark or buying you a bouquet of pink flowers. Another year where I won’t be making plans for eating brunch, going shopping, or getting pedicures with you.
At least last year I was able to spend Mother’s Day with Dad, Tara, Bryan, Lisa, Grandma, and Grandpa by going out to brunch with them at your favorite restaurant to honor and celebrate your memory. This year, I can’t even do that because I’m now living thousands of miles away from them.
But even though you and I can’t physically be together today, I take comfort in the fact that we’ll be together mentally and spiritually: I’ll be thinking about you, and I know you’ll be with me.
Also, I want to say how much I love and appreciate you. You may be gone from Earth, but I can still see and feel the effects you’ve had and continue to have on my life: I know it was you who helped Dad to win his battle with prostate cancer; I know it was you who gave me the courage to move to a new country; I know it’s you who helps me find my way home whenever I get lost in my new city; I know it’s you who gently pushes me to have an open mind and try new things which, in turn, brings amazing people into my life.
Thank you for continuing to be there for me in every way possible, despite the fact we’re so far apart now. And thank you for helping me to be brave and strong, just like you.
With all my love,