I’m starting to have second thoughts about becoming a teacher.
These apprehensive thoughts I’ve been having mainly have to do with the fact that, lately, I’ve been frustrated with the process of going back to school. Here’s why:
1) I applied for a subbing job and never heard back from anyone. I think this might have to do with the fact that I applied in the beginning of May, so schools aren’t in dire need of subs now since it’s summer. I’m not sure. All I know is that I was depending on substitute teaching as a second source of income once I moved back from Korea, but unfortunately, it’s not working out like I hoped it would.
2) I recently received my test results for the CSET, and it turns out I only passed one out of the three tests. This means I have to re-take the three tests I failed and pass them all before I apply for any credential programs in August. Not only is it going to cost me $150 to take the tests again, but what if I don’t pass them? I’ll be screwed!
3) I thought that the credential program I want to be accepted into the most (CSU Sacramento) was only a two-semester program. Well, I’ve done some more research and apparently that’s only if I start in September; if I get accepted and start in January like I’ve been planning on, the program lasts for THREE semesters. This means I won’t graduate until I’m 29. Because of this realization, I’ve been struggling with the fact that I might not get my career going until I’m almost 30 years old.
4) Someone making this comment to me: “Teaching is one of the least respected professions in America. Why would you want to do it?”
Because of these recent frustrations, I’ve been confused, freaked out, and stressed. What if these are all signs I’m not supposed to be a teacher? What if I don’t pass the CSET again? What if I pass the CSET and still don’t get accepted into any credential programs? THEN WHAT WILL I DO WITH MY LIFE, UNIVERSE!?
Luckily, through all of the confusion, freak outs, and stress, I’ve managed to devise a Plan B for my career path: I’m going to re-take the CSET in July, and if I still don’t pass it, I’m going to take that as a sign that I’m not supposed to become a teacher. Instead, I want to start working in social media/editorial writing. I want my blog to grow and learn how to make money blogging. I want to get good enough at writing so that people will pay me to do it. I want to make my secret dream of being a writer become a reality.
There’s an old expression that goes: Those who can, do; those who can’t, teach. Well, if I can’t teach, then I’m going to do.
Have you ever second-guessed your calling in life? Or have you always known exactly what you’re supposed to do?