Is it just me, or are there pictures of cute babies ALL OVER FACEBOOK AND INSTAGRAM?
Now, I’m not complaining. All of these pictures of babies eating, sleeping, playing, making funny faces, and dressed in panda bear onesies are damn cute. My only complaint is that because I’m seeing all of these baby pictures on a daily basis, I’ve developed a case of baby fever. And it’s getting bad.
I’ve always wanted kids. In fact, when I was 21, I wanted to be married and getting ready to start a family of eight! Thankfully, some sense was knocked into me and I changed my Future Number of Kids from six to four. Then there was a short period of time when I didn’t want kids because I went through a bad dating streak and figured there were no more decent men in the world to conceive with. Then I met Chris and that mentality changed fast: The guy is an amazing uncle to his two little nieces, which tells me he’ll be an even better dad someday. So why wouldn’t I want him to be my baby daddy?
Sometimes I wonder how I would react if I were to miss my period next week. Would I stress out? FREAK OUT? Cry because I’m about to gain 40 pounds? Or would I be secretly happy that I’m finally about to have a little one of my own with the man I love more than anything?
I think if it came down to it, I would be happy and excited. At first.
But once all of the happy, excited feelings subsided and reality started to set in, I would start to freak out a little bit. Chris and I aren’t married yet, and while we’re definitely planning on getting married later this year, I would like for us to be married first before kids start coming into the picture. Even better if we’ve been married for a couple years so we can have more time for ourselves and the things we want to do in life. Also, I want us to be in a better financial state before we have kids so we can give them the best lives possible. Essentially, I want us to be ready. And right now, we’re far from being there.
So for now, I’ll keep taking my No-Baby pills every day when I’m supposed to. I’ll babysit my future nieces to remind me of how much work kids can be. I’ll keep admiring the pictures my friends post of their babies on Facebook and Instagram, And I’ll keep in mind that someday, when I’m good and ready, I’ll be posting my own, too.
Do you want to have kids someday? Why or why not?