I can’t believe it. Only one more month left of my twenties! This is exciting and scary all at the same time.
With only one more month left until I hit the big 3-0, I figure I should share where I’m at mentally, physically, emotionally, etc.
In terms of birthday travels, it’s official: there won’t be any. Chris and I took Otis to an orthopedic surgeon last Friday to find out exactly what’s wrong with his knee since it seems like the pain med and joint supplements haven’t helped him improve as much as we had hoped. It turns out Otis has a grade 3 luxating patella which is going to require a surgery that will cost us anywhere from $3,000 to $4,000. Yeeeaaahhh, it sucks big time. Since Chris and I are broke from paying our taxes, we’re going to wait until early June have the surgery done. Plus, it’s going to take Otis 6-8 weeks to heal and I don’t want to deal with that, nor the expense, leading up to my birthday. I’m already stressed out about a few other things, like how I’m probably not going to accomplish the three big goals I wanted to reach by this birthday milestone, which means what I need to work on now is accepting the fact and moving on.
I’ll be the first to admit that I’m a Type A person, and a few difficult things about being a Type A person is that we thrive on to do lists, deadlines/timelines, and being in control. I made myself this to-do list five months ago and gave myself until my 30th birthday to make it all happen. Now that I have four weeks left until my deadline and I’ve realized I’m on the verge of failing myself, I’ll admit that I’m not taking it very well. I feel like I’m not in control of my own life because there are all these unexpected obstacles are getting in my way of getting what I want, when I want it (i.e. NOW). Unexpected vet bills are stopping me from reaching my financial goals. Running injuries are keeping me from reaching my fitness goals. And a very competitve job market is preventing me from meeting my career goals. It’s all very frustrating, but instead of continuing to lose sleep over all this, I think I need to stop dwelling on what I haven’t accomplished yet, and focus on what I have accomplished. Something else I need to keep in mind if that I will eventually reach my goals, it’s just not going to happen on my timeline. Finally, I need to keep my eyes on my own paper. Just because other people in my age are buying houses, getting pregnant, and have successful careers does not mean that I am behind in life. That stuff will all happen for me, too, when Life is ready to give it to me.
On a more positive note, I’m still making fun plans for my birthday weekend even though we can’t afford to travel anywhere. In addition to having an ’80s themed birthday party, I plan to have a little weekend staycation that involves lounging poolside, some pampering, and a little shopping (similar to what I did last year). Leading up to my birthday, I plan to keep focusing on my goals, but I also plan to start blogging more. Transitioning from my twenties to my thirties is an exciting time, and I have a lot more that I want so say about it!
How do you feel about turning 30? If you’re already in your thirties, did you dread it or embrace it?