A boudoir photo shoot is something I had been wanting to do for the last few years, mainly for Chris, but I kept putting it off, mainly because of my being overweight. So when I lost almost 20 pounds over the summer and realized Chris had a birthday coming up in September, I decided I should finally go through with the photoshoot.
I started researching boudoir photographers in the Sacramento area, and the more I researched, the more excited I got. Well, that’s not entirely true. I wasn’t excited about the price of a boudoir shoot/album and realized this gift would have to double as Chris’ birthday gift AND wedding anniversary gift. But besides that little factor, I was excited to do this, not just for Chris, but for myself. Here’s why:
- I thought this would be a great way to celebrate my weightloss and capture myself at a weight I’m mostly comfortable with, especially since there’s a chance I might get pregnant next year once we start trying. I keep hearing that after you have a baby, your body is never the same (hips expand, stretchmarks, etc.) so I figured I should do something like this now before I get “mom bod” in the future.
- I turned 30 earlier this year and struggled a little bit with getting “older.” (Yes, I know 30 is not old, but it feels like it when you all of a sudden start getting a ton of gray hairs!) I thought this would be a good way to convince myself that even though I’m not in my twenties anymore, I’m still young and look good!
- I wanted to feel sexy for once in my life. I’ve never thought of myself as a sexy person, and I don’t think many people who know me would think that either (I’m often described as “sweet and innocent”). In fact, trying to be sexy has always felt awkward to me; I’ve tried salsa dancing a few times and always hated it because I didn’t feel like I was sexy enough to pull it off! So doing a boudoir photo shoot sounded like the perfect way for me to find my inner sexy and embrace it.
I eventually found Jillian Todd, a boudoir photographer whose style I liked, and booked a session. Though once I booked a session, my nervousness came back: What would I wear? Would I be able to lose these last 5 pounds before the shoot? What if I didn’t like the photos? WHAT IF I COULDN’T FIND MY INNER SEXY?
The boudoir shoot came and went, and it was a blast. Jillian had a professional make-up artist do my hair and make-up, then she helped me narrow down, out of all the outfits I brought, the four best, most flattering ones for me to wear during my shoot. I never lost those last 5 pounds beforehand which resulted in my feeling a little self-conscious about my stomach area during the shoot, but Jillian was able to teach me how to pose in ways that were flattering for my body. She also taught me how to look at the camera in sultry ways. Thanks to Jillian’s guidance and easygoing personality, I was able to let go of my nerves and have fun throughout the shoot. One of my favorite memories from the shoot was when Jillian showed me one of the photos she had taken on her camera’s LCD screen and I started tearing up; I couldn’t believe that girl– that woman–in the photo was me!
As for the end result, Chris loved the photos! Chris is the kind of guy who would want and appreciate sexy photos of his lady, so he was over the moon when I gave him the photo album. I loved the photos as well and I’m so glad I did this for Chris AND me! I now have a little keepsake photo album to treasure and look back at when I’m 40, 50, 80-years-old and remember myself when I was young, hot, and in-shape. It was also an empowering experience that helped me to finally find and embrace my inner sexy. I still find it truly amazing that what was intended to be a gift for Chris ended up being a gift for me, too.
Have you ever done a boudoir photo shoot? If not, would you?