Now that we’re in December, I can’t stop thinking about one thing: how Chris and I are going to start trying to have a baby after the new year.
I’m both excited and nervous about this huge life step. I’m excited about the possibility of growing our family and becoming a mother– I’ve always wanted to be a mom! But I’m nervous for the emotional roller coaster that is trying to conceive. As much as I want to believe that getting pregnant will happen for me relatively soon, I’m also trying not to forget about the chances of miscarraige or infertility. And if I do get pregnant easily and make it past the first trimester, that will lead me to a whole new set of worries:
Will I handle pregnancy with grace or will I be a hot, emotional mess for 9 months?
Will I be able to keep up with healthy eating and exercise while pregnant or will I turn into a ginormous sloth?
One word: LABOR
How will we afford a baby?
Who will watch our baby when I go back to work?
These are only a handful of the things I think about when I envision how this huge life change will affect us next year, but I try not to stress about it too much and think about the things I CAN control right now. For instance, I’m trying to sleep in on the weekends as much as possible and not take sleep for granted in general, because if we have kids, sleeping in and sleeping through the night will be hard to come by (even during pregnancy). I’m enjoying all my favorite food and booze right now because when we start trying, I plan on cleaning up my diet hardcore with another Whole30 and then paleo eating to follow. I’m buying little things I want here and there, because if we have a baby, I’m going to have to really cut back on my wants and start putting my dollars toward diapers and a college fund. Chris and I are planning a cheap weekend getaway to Seattle in March since we didn’t travel much in 2015. We really want to get at least one trip in before a baby comes, because once we have one, we probably won’t be able to get away much, and when we do, it’ll be to kid-friendly places like Disneyland.
Along with making sure to enjoy these last few weeks before trying to conceive, I’m planning this potential pregnancy as much as I possibly can. I know exactly when I’m going to trade in my birth control pills for prenatal pills and I already have an ovulation tracker app downloaded to my phone. I’ve been researching how to use cloth diapers and how much money we could save with them. I’m avoiding signing up for any half marathons because the thought of training for a half marathon while pregnant sounds not fun. I’ve even started using Pinterest again to save all the good pregnancy, baby, and parenting advice I’ve been researching on the internet. I think saying I like to plan ahead and be prepared would be an understatement.
Well, this is where I’m at one month out until my life changes drastically. I still don’t have all the answers to this next big step, but I do know that I am as ready as I will ever be.